It's been three years since I've been on dialysis and I finally received the call from the transplant team. When I picked up the phone, it was early in the morning and they told me that I was among three candidates to receive a donated kidney. So now I had to wait until they made their final decision. They told me that I might be a possible match but that they still had to run some numbers and some tests, and to be ready just in case I was a match.
I started getting anxiety because this might be it, this might be the answer to my prayers. A chance at getting my life back. But at the same time, this meant spending hours in surgery, getting opened up and a long recovery.
I talked to my family and they were optimistic that I would get the kidney. I told them that I was up for a kidney but to not get their hopes up. It's weird how you want something so bad and when you get it, it scares the hell out of you. My mind went a million places. I started thinking about packing a bag just in case they called me, I needed to get my clothes ready for when I got out of the hospital I would have something to wear.
I also thought of the needles that they insert on the side of your neck, so the first thing I thought was to shave my head since I had long hair. I grabbed the hair clippers and started cutting it off. My sister told me to wait because it wasn't even a sure thing that I was going to get the kidney, but all I kept thinking is that I needed to be ready just in case I got the call to go to the hospital for a kidney transplant.
That afternoon, I received the second call. I was on my way out to play with my dog Chai when I picked up the call. When I answered, I was terrified, my heart was running 100 beats per a minute and I was so nervous. The lady explained that they were giving the kidney to a child that needed the kidney more that I did. I was heartbroken but at the same time I had emotionally prepared myself just in case I didn't get it.
For now, I will continue to take care of myself and continue to wait until I get the call again. Hopefully it will be before my hair grows long again.